Infatuation

by Luke Brekhus

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released 02 December 2012

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Track Name: Infatuation
Uh
Tst tst
Oh
Two three four!

Woah

I saw her in the hall one day
Such casual events I’d usually forget
But for some reason she didn’t leave my head
Oh no, not another infatuation!

Why am I only attracted to women
Who don’t have the same classes as me?
I only catch a glimpse every other day

But maybe I have a chance
Look through my recommended friends
Send her a request on Facebook
Our relationship can only ascend

‘Cause I’m workin’ from the bottom
And I’m staying there ‘till autumn
I’m producing my first album
It’s called Z

I’ll admit that it’s not good
Rejection is understood
But at least give it a listen
And you’ll see

That I am not just another guy
I’ve got talent in my fingers and passion in my eyes
My voice is a bit nasally
But I see that as a quality

When I see you I get so nervous
I can hardly speak
It might be easier if you’d pay attention to me

But that’s not how it works
I’m inhibited by convention
I’m doing this on my own
Back for another session

‘Cause the dinner’s on the table
And I’m willing if you’re able
Unlike the males shown on cable
I’m real

If you’d just give me a chance
I can show you there’s romance
In this world of atrocity
I am clean

Woah

I just want you to think I’m cool
I just want you to think I’m incredible
But eventually you’ll see I’m not who you thought I’d be
And you’ll lose your infatuation with me

I really think you’re cool
I really think you’re incredible
But eventually you’ll do something that I don’t want you to do
And I’ll lose my infatuation with you

Woah

But I know you’re gonna be my friend
I’m not there yet but I’m gonna be
And then you’re gonna be my girlfriend
I’m not there yet but I’m gonna be

And I see it every time that I look in your eyes that we are meant to be
I may not know you well enough to know that but I have a good feeling
Our happiness together will be rife
Even though you haven’t said a word to me, you’ve affected my whole life

Infatuation, yeah
Infatuation, yeah
Infatution, yeah

Woah

And I know you’re gonna be my friend
And then you’re gonna be my girlfriend (x4)

And you’re gonna be my fucking friend
And you’re gonna be my fucking girlfriend (x4)

So please just hold my fucking hand
So we can be together, it’ll be nice
It’ll be great
It’ll be spectacular
Aren’t I good enough for you?
How high can your standards possibly be?
C’mon, there’s nothing we won’t do
I just, I just want to be with you
I just AHH!

I’m obsessed with you!
Track Name: Beta Fuck
My name is Beta Male Billy
Yes, my name is kinda silly
But it’s the only one I’ve got

I’d ask for a new one
But my mom tore me a new one
Now my confidence is shot

‘Cause I’m a beta fuck
And I’m shit outta luck
Because I’m not good enough for anyone
And you’re smart
And I’m dumb
And I’m not good enough for anyone, no

No matter how hard I try
All I can ever do is cry
‘Cause people are so mean

Maybe I should stand for myself
But I choose to remain submissive
‘Cause it’s so comforting

‘Cause I’m a beta fuck
And I’m shit outta luck
Because I’m not good enough for anyone
And you’re smart
And I’m dumb
And I’m not good enough for anyone

They say what goes around, well, it comes around
Don’t put your trust in me because I’ll just let you down

‘Cause I’m a beta fuck
And I’m shit outta luck
Because I’m not good enough for anyone
And you’re smart
And I’m dumb
And I’m not good enough for anyone, no

Not even the person listening to this song, oh
Not even good enough for you
Looking like a sack of refried beans
No, not even good enough for you
‘Cause I’m a beta, fuck
Track Name: Incomplete
I wake up to the smell of smoke and sulfur every day
All inhibitions and perturbing thoughts quickly fade away
My moniker is middle class
And my mission is to kick all ass

I am just a human; a fragile organism
Any meaning I apply to life is a pretentious illusion
You and I concur
And we hang on every word

There’s no stoppin’
Speed my libido identifies the hero
Pi divided by Z don’t really matter to me
As long as it’s divided by zero
It seems to be; stickin’ by me
Is stickin’ with a weirdo

My mind is out of sync
Incomplete

I’m in pain though I’m not in pain
I’m in synthesis against the grain
I pay taxes at the minimum wage
I don’t do anything I just complain
I’m insane

Give into delusion when life is too confusing
Complacency and ignorance is a valid substitution
For the years of pain and suffering
Your forefathers spent wondering

Sleep is more important than the state of the union
This meaning and antithesis breeds a revolution
But it’s fight or flight or not at all
The dean has a mighty mating call

Cheat the system
Rich guy provided by corporate institutions
My apathy is absolution
Mental prison’s the solution
I won’t have your sympathy
When I determine my resolution

My mind is out of sync
Incomplete

I’m in pain though I’m not in pain
I’m in synthesis against the grain
I pay taxes at the minimum wage
I don’t do anything I just complain
I’m insane

I’ve got the handle you got the trigger
Don’t fuck with me 'cause I shot the nigger
No, I’m not joking, this is my religion
It's convoluted but worth it for the vigor

I keep on fighting but the willpower is shot from me

There’s no stoppin’
Speed my libido identifies the hero
Pi divided by Z don’t really matter to me
As long as it’s divided by zero
It seems to be; stickin’ by me
Is stickin’ with a weirdo

My mind is out of sync
Incomplete
Track Name: Fuck You and Your Stupid Clique
Fuck you and your stupid clique, everybody in it is a fuckin’ bitch (x12)
La la la la la la la, la la la la la la la la la la la

Everybody in it is a fuckin’ bitch
Everybody in it is a fuckin’ bitch
Everybody in it is a fuckin’ bitch
Everybody in it is a fuckin’ bitch
Track Name: Proportions
I’m my own worst enemy
I commit transgressions against my own beliefs
But do I even know what I believe?
Maybe I’m too dumb to think

But it’s okay
I’m okay

Have you ever had to make a decision that would make an impact on the rest of your life?
Have you ever made a bad decision for temporary relief but long term strife?

I’ve been there before
And I’ve never shut that door
Life goes on, but I

Can’t stand fucking bullshit
Fucking wasting my proportions

Oh, Life goes on

Woah

You think you can relate to me
But this problem plagues me like a disease
I’m always wondering
How can I make sense of me?

But that’s okay
I’m okay

Have you ever thrown something good away because you thought it was a detriment to your life?
Have you ever wished you could go back in time to fix a mistake that has caused you a lifetime of strife?

Oh, what have I done?
My life has just begun
Life goes on, but I

Can’t stand fucking bullshit
Fucking wasting my proportions

Oh, Life goes on

Woah

I
I think it’s time
To claim what is mine

I need
To be set free
From the chains in my life
Track Name: It's Mutual
She said your voice ain’t that bad
She said I don’t mind that you’re mad
She said I like your head
She said in fact you’re kinda rad

I said it’s mutual, she said it’s mutual too
I said it’s mutual, she said it’s mutual too

She said I like your hair
She said I really like your hair
She said let’s say a prayer
Just kidding, I’m not fucked up up there

I said it’s mutual, she said it’s mutual too
I said it’s mutual, she said it’s mutual too
Track Name: Girlfriend
I have a girlfriend
Look at my girlfriend
Do you have a girlfriend?
I have a girlfriend (x2)

Look at us holding hands!
The way our hands connect through our appendages
Our appendages are connected to our bodies
Our bodies are connected to our heads

Isn’t she so nice?
How she’s willing to keep my hands warm?
Aren’t I so romantic?
How I’m willing to shelter her from the storm?

I’m in love, and you’re not
You don’t got what I got
We’re in love, and you’re not
You don’t got what we got, no!

Woah

I have a girlfriend
Look at my girlfriend
Do you have a girlfriend?
I have a girlfriend (x2)

Look at us making out!
The way our tongues connect through our orifices
Our orifices are connected to our bodies
Our bodies are connected to our pelvises

Isn’t she so hospitable?
How she’s willing to let me swap spit?
Aren’t I so sweet?
How despite my anxiety I’m willing to commit?

I’m in love, and you’re not
You don’t go what I got
We’re in love, and you’re not
You don’t got what we got, no!

Woah

I have a girlfriend
Look at my girlfriend
Do you have a girlfriend?
I have a girlfriend (x2)

Look at us having sex!
The way our genitals connect using our pelvises
Our pelvises are connected to our body
Our bodies are connected to our brain

Isn’t she a catch?
How she’s willing to let me tickle her twat?
Aren’t I so warm?
How I’m willing to comfort her with my cock?

I’m in love, and you’re not
You don’t got what I got
We’re in love, and you’re not
You don’t got what we got, no!

Woah
Track Name: The Greatest Man Who Ever Lived
To me you can do what you want
Despite adversity I will still flaunt
Go on and catch me if you can, ‘cause I am the greatest man
Because I am the greatest man who ever lived, yeah
Track Name: Too Much Dopamine
I’ve never been so stimulated in my life
My heart does twirls every time I look in her eyes

And I know she’s superb
I know she’s superb
I know she’s superb
And I know I fucked up
I know I fucked up
I know I fucked up

But somehow I’m still here
My heart intact
She’s still here too
Attached, in fact!

Except the stimulation is from the inside
And my heart’s in place
And it’s not her
It’s the chemicals in my brain!

I’m not insane! (x4)

I’ll be fine as long as I have her (x3)
I’ll be fine as long as I own her heart

I won’t lose her
‘Cause I’m not a loser
But I’ll probably lose her because I’ve just got

Too much dopamine in my system
Pi divided by Z still don’t matter to me
Too much dopamine in my system
Pi divided by Z still don’t matter to me

I won’t lose her
‘Cause I’m not a loser
But I’ll probably lose her because I’ve just got

Too much dopamine in my system
Pi divided by Z still don’t matter to me
Too much dopamine in my system
Pi divided by Z still don’t matter to me
Ahh! Too much dopamine!
Track Name: The Chillin' Song
I'm just chillin'
I'm just chillin'
I'm just chillin'
It's the chillin' song

I'm just chillin'
I'm just chillin'
I'm just chillin'
It's the chillin' song

Chillin' song, yeah
Chillin' song, yeah

I'm just chillin'
I'm just chillin'
I'm just chillin'
It's the chillin' song

I'm just chillin'
I'm just chillin'
I'm just chillin'
It's the chillin' song

Chillin' all day long
Chillin' all day long
Chillin' all day long
Chillin' all day long, yeah
Track Name: She's Gone
All the things that I’ve done, they mean nothing
And all the things that you said, they were lies
Tell me, how does it feel?
To fuck with someone’s heart without care?

My life is fucked
My teeth are fucked
My ass is fucked
Everything is fucked

‘Cause now, she has gone
She’s really gone
She’s gone and gone
She’s fucking gone

Now she’s gone
She’s really gone
She’s gone and gone
She’s fucking gone

Now she’s gone
Now she’s gone
Now she’s gone

I’m gonna fucking puke
But as long as you’re happy
I’m happy
Track Name: I Feel Like Dying
I feel like dying
I don't feel right
I feel like dying
Nobody's gonna save me tonight

She's moving out
There's no way out
I'm breaking down

I'm knocking on her door
There's no one home
I'm on the floor

I feel like dying
I don't feel right
I feel like dying
Nobody's gonna save me tonight
Track Name: Suicide
I never found a way
To reconcile with all the things I fucked up that day
I wish I could take it back
It doesn’t matter because it’s all in the past
It shouldn’t last

I’m not the kind of guy who’d want to commit suicide
But now I feel envy for the forty billion who’ve died
I’m not the kind of guy who’d want to commit suicide
But now I feel envy for those who’ve taken their own

Life is such a chore
I’ve fucked five children and five million whores
But who the hell’s keeping score?
My point is that I’ve already been there before
But no more

Hey, I’m not so bad
If you were honest you’d admit you’re an asshole too
Perhaps I’m a bit more than most
In the words of Bad Religion, “How could hell be any worse?”
We disperse

I’m not the kind of guy who’d want to commit suicide
But now I feel envy for the forty billion who’ve died
I’m not the kind of guy who’d want to commit suicide
But now I feel envy for those who’ve taken their own

Life is such a bitch
When you’re never able to scratch that itch
But you kind of get used to it
My point is that it really is worth it
isn’t it?
Track Name: Square One
I miss you, and I miss your warmth
I can’t quite get the same fulfillment with porn
You and anybody else I can’t compare

You took me and made a new form
Every rose has its thorn
You’re not coming back I am aware

I miss you, I miss you, and I don’t wanna go back to square one
I miss you, I miss you, and I don’t wanna go back to square one
I miss you, I miss you, and I don’t wanna go back to square one
I miss you, I miss you, and I don’t wanna go back to square one

I am crumbled and cracked
How many thumbtacks can you fit upon a map?
And how much space do you need between them to keep them there?
Track Name: Drug Deprived
Pee, I gotta pee
Go, go, go, go on without me
Just leave me here bleeding
I’m not worth it, worth the money, no

I’ve got drugs that’ll fuck your mind
I’ve got toys that’ll leave you dry
And when you’re addicted I’ll rob you blind
You’ll be broke and drug deprived

Say, I’ve really lost it
It’s high time to get high without me
If I had a penny for every time, it would be a crime
I can’t even come up with another rhyme

I’ve got drugs that’ll fuck your mind
I’ve got toys that’ll leave you dry
And when you’re addicted I’ll rob you blind
You’ll be broke and drug deprived

Not gonna waste it
Lost my mind
Not gonna waste it
Drug deprived

Pain, I’m in pain
Going to hell, so ring that cowbell
Because tonight I’m going to hell
So ring that cow

I’ve got drugs that’ll fuck your mind
I’ve got toys that’ll leave you dry
And when you’re addicted I’ll rob you blind
You’ll be broke and drug deprived

Not gonna waste it
Lost my mind
Not gonna waste it
Drug deprived

(Scat)

I’ve got drugs that’ll fuck your mind
I’ve got toys that’ll leave you dry
And when you’re addicted I’ll rob you blind
You’ll be broke and drug deprived

Not gonna waste it
Lost my mind
Not gonna waste it
Drug deprived

I’m gonna rob you blind
You know they say that love is blind?

Oh darling, I don’t ever wanna leave
But apparently this can’t be
And it hurts, it hurts me so
It hurts me to let you go

I really don’t think I can take it any fucking longer
This pain is too much, I don’t think I’ll come out stronger
I’ve been beaten down, beaten up, now I’ve got to straighten up
I don’t think I can live this life when there is no love
I know for nobody it’s easy
But I’m not anybody, believe me
So give me a bit of respect
Or I’ll break your fucking neck
You don’t know what it’s like
To have your thumb shoved up your nose all your life
So fuck you
Fuck you and your stupid clique

You can take my life away from me, I don’t care
Track Name: Yeah
Give me a reason to be
I promise you that I’ll never leave
But I’m not the decision maker
Subjugated in life’s endless stream

Yeah
But I’m all right
But I’m okay

How could I be so mean?
I just wanted to feel your thunder
I just want it all
I’m just running through the wall

Yeah
But I’m all right
But I’m okay

Take what you need
Leave behind your desires

Keep fighting, ‘cause you’ll never make it
You’ll never overthrow the regime
Another casualty in the endless fire
Gone against his beliefs

He never wanted to conquer in the first place
It just came naturally
Slippery slope through the wheel of time
Beat him up till he leaves

You can’t run from your life
You can’t run from your life

You don’t choose where you’re born, what you do
Or even what you think
Consciousness gives an illusion of control
But we’re just a result of the big bang

It never ceases to amaze
It never ceases to amaze
Track Name: Dead Butterflies
Thoughts running through my head
Things I thought of saying, but never said
If I had a box of words that changed my life
It’d be full of dead butterflies

I’m not gay
But at least I’m back to sane
The world keeps on turning
I’m moving on again

I’ve had many a chance
But I fucked up and now the words are dead
If I could go back in time
I’d see dead butterflies

I’m not gay
But at least I’m back to sane
I’m still learning
I’m growing up again

Now I’m just fine
I’ve found something better to occupy my mind
Before I wouldn’t dare
Remember when I cared?

Now I don’t give a fuck
About your arbitrary walls
Created by your arbitrary thoughts
The faces you tape on dolls
If I could go back in time
I’d give it up
Because now I realize
You’re not what I want!
Track Name: What Happened to You?
Everything I do, I do it for you
Everything I have is taken from you
Every time I move, it’s driven from you
Every dying breath is taken for you

Hey you, you and me
I thought we were meant to be
Even though I’m not religious
You just fulfilled my fantasies
But it was just a teenage dream
Not I just want some more ice cream

I’m young and I’m stupid
I indulge in my delusions
I am lonely and I’m human
And I am so small

But you’re not any better
Must I recall your last letter?
You said some things that were not true
Now they’re coming back to you
Made me believe you were different
You really sparked my interest

And now I feel so dumb
I’m glad we had our fun
I’ll never worship your thumb
No, not again

‘Cause I thought you wanted progress, but you’re conservative as fuck
I’ve dealt with disappointment, but I’ve never fallen so hard out of love

So please go away
You can take your memories
I thought you were an angel
But that was just a fantasy

‘Cause I thought you wanted progress, but you’re conservative as fuck
I’ve dealt with disappointment, but I’ve never fallen so hard out of love

I can’t believe
That it took so long to see
That I’m not the one for you
And you’re not the one for me

Now I’m so embarrassed
I can’t believe that I cherished
Someone who isn’t true
What happened to you?

I thought you wanted progress, but you’re conservative as fuck
I've dealt with disappointment, but I’ve never fallen so hard out of love
Track Name: Over You
Oh my god!
What have I done?
And what can I do to go back?

My life is back in check, now that I’m over you
Over you
I have built the bridge right over you
My life is back in check, now that I’m over

Holy fuck!
I’m not innocent
Where have I been the past year?

I’m chillin’ with a beer, now that I’m over you
Over you
I have built the bridge right over you
I’m chillin’ with a beer, now that I’m over

Fucking cunt!
She’s not the only one
How could I have been so delusional to think that?

My sanity is back, now that I’m over you
Over you
I have built the bridge right over you
My sanity is back, now that I’m over

My infatuation, yeah
Infatuation, yeah
Infatuation

My life is back in check, now that I’m over you
Over you
I have built the bridge right over you
Over you
Over you
I have built the bridge right over me
Track Name: Teenager
If you thought this album was emo
You are correct
If you thought my voice needs chemo
You’d also be correct
I am neurotic
Deprived of logic
‘Cause I’m a teenager, and I’m a fuck like all the rest
I’m a teenager, and I’m a fuck like all the rest

If you thought I need to stop making music
You’d be correct
If you thought this isn’t worth the money
You’d also be correct
Everything that I create
Is a mistake
‘Cause I’m a teenager, and I’m a fuck like all the rest
I’m a teenager, and I’m a fuck like all the rest

If you thought this needs to end
You’d be correct
If you thought was too long
you’d also be correct
This is the end of the album
Aren’t you depressed?
‘Cause I’m a teenager, and I’m a fuck like all the rest
I’m a teenager, and I’m a fuck like all the rest

Woah